"Picking Up Pieces" by Blue October

"Picking Up Pieces"

I really need to talk with you

I keep stepping on the vein

That keeps my lifeline flowing through

I wanna be your perfect stick of glue

But I don't feel perfect at all

Sad and insecure flaw

I find it hard to hold conversations

I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away

No, it's not you it's strictly me in this situation

I'm wondering will it ever go away...just go away, still

Sometimes I feel like weeping

Awake and when I'm sleeping

Perfecting how to put a game face on

This puzzle I've been keeping

Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door

Spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces

How long will I be picking up my heart

Listen...

I'll be as honest as I feel

I'm getting more paranoid and I'm hearing things

And they never turn out real

It feels like my heart is made of pure steel

It's just so heavy all the time

Yea I'm scared of death

And I'm scared of living

I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving

I misplaced my trust

I watched my word begin to rust

I'm a balloon about to bust

I need a place for reliving

Sometimes I feel like weeping

Awake and when I'm sleeping

Perfecting how to put a game face on

And this puzzle I've been keeping

Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door

Spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces

How long will I be picking up my heart

How long (in another space and time)

Will I be picking up pieces in the corner of my mind

How long (its getting oh so hard to find)

Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind

But I still walk on